again.
i swear i go to blog.
even come up with something catchy to write about.
and then i get lost reading other blogs.
or pinterest.
or the boyfriend texts me
and the blog just gets neglected.
oops.
anyways.
everyone knows that when they were younger
13-18
growing up sounded like the best thing in the world.
no one can tell you what to do, what to say, how to act
you could do whatever, whenever.
and your parents (or maybe just mine) laughed
and said you don't know how good you have it.
this is one of those
oh crap, my parents knew what they were talking about moments
don't get me wrong.
i love the freedom of growing up
but sometimes i hate it.
i just want to go back to when the biggest worry was what to wear to school
and if your friends were in your class.
(i wouldn't want to go back to high school
psh you couldn't pay me to go back
i just want the carefree life i had when i was there.)
now you have to worry about
putting gas in your car
making the car payment
having a good job
paying bills
and making life decisions...
...life altering decisions.
i am horrible at making decisions
its true.
ask anyone who knows me
and maybe this is my problem.
yes i have my dreams.
and my goals.
but when it comes to figuring out how to get there
i just wish i didn't have to decide
and someone would just tell me.
and since that isn't going to happen..
this is what i've come to realize:
growing up is just that.
you have to learn lessons by yourself.
sure you have support
but in the end its your life.
and how you want it to go is up to you.
some lessons you will learn the easy way
(thats always a nice way to learn)
or you have to learn the hard way
(this seems to be the way i like to learn....)
but either way at the end of the day
you've grown.
as easy at it would be to just be little again
we all know thats not possible.
so all we can do
is hold on tight and try to do the best we can.
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